tinder (no, not that tinder)

Although by now I should know better / I guess I’m just a repeat offender / Maybe next time I’ll have a change of heart / On second thought, I’ll toss the cards / Besides it’s always my damn fault / The blow lands softer when it’s from my hand

I started thinking bout picking up and heading out / To somewhere else for better memories / But my rearview mirror keeps fogging up / It seems I can’t forget enough / The wreckage of my past iniquities

But all I know for sure is shame / And having my own self to blame / Feels better than someone else’s sting / When walls around my fragile heart / Protect me from outside assault / I know I’m better off this way / Cause no one else feels pain / When I’m the tinder for my own flame

I can’t afford this time to sit around, ignore the signs / These wheels just keep on picking up more speed / If I’m too late to pump the breaks / It just might be the last mistake I make / Before they’re digging six feet deep

But all I know for sure is shame / And having my own self to blame / Feels better than someone else’s sting / When walls around my fragile heart / Protect me from outside assault / I know I’m better off this way / Cause no one else feels pain / When I’m the tinder for my own flame

Somewhere along the line / I finally realized my plan was broke / I forgot about second hand smoke

I thought I knew for sure that shame / And having my own self to blame / Felt better than someone else’s sting / But walls around my fragile heart / Can find a way to fall apart / Am I really better off this way? / Everyone feels pain / Until I learn to put out my own flame